Ruth's Ramblings

Church Camp

Blessed by this weekend, yet still feeling incomplete. Everything was too rushed and there wasn't enough time for anything. I was hoping to catch up with friends/individuals, but I barely had time for a couple chats here and there. I didn't even have much time for myself either, much less time with God. Frustrating how short it was.

Yet although it was almost like a blur, there were some choice themes that jumped out at me this weekend. I knew it was coming, because throughout my times with God, I can already sense where my heart is, and where it is lacking. And this weekend, God continued to challenge me on how much faith I have. Do I remember His faithfulness in the past? When I lack faith, I lack His power in my life (Ephesians 1:19). Do I have enough faith to believe that what little I can offer up to God, He can multiply it and supply my every need AND equipt me to do what He's asked me to do (Mark 6:30-44)?

Some reminders for me to chew on. And as we approach our upcoming Nepal trip, we are praying for direction and faith. In our human eyes, there are too many huge roadblocks ahead. Does that signal a "no" from above? Or shall we depend on our faith to look to God to overcome these things? Where is my heart in all this? Again, I am far from being ready, and I am going through the familiar process of struggling with myself and being broken in order to be used by God.

And as for friendships - this past weekend reminded me that they are (and have been) changing. I will always need my fill of girlfriends, married or not. And as we approach our 3rd anniversary, I'm starting to re-evaluate the coming changes again, and learning from them all over again.

Posted by Ruth at 5/31/2005