Ruth's Ramblings

The ugly mirror

Recently I encountered some individuals that made me feel uncomfortable about building deeper relationships with them. From my interactions with them, I didn't feel safe sharing with them... I felt like they were going to pass judgment towards me and from that, it made me feel guarded and tense around them. Then I had a sudden thought - I wonder if I do the same for others (or perhaps, pass judgment right back at the same individuals?!)... and I realized that my tendency to be critical and quick to judge was a weakness of mine as well... and if I don't consciously watch it, I'll be pushing away people as well... it was a sobering reminder for myself as I continue to undo alot of tendencies that I grew up with and picked up along the way...

Posted by Ruth at 2/02/2004