Ruth's Ramblings

Transformation from the inside out

The past couple months I've noticed a difference in my attitude towards my salvation - (it's a strange thing) I find myself dissolving to tears everytime I'm reminded of the cross and how much God loves me. It's almost like I'm finally starting to comprehend (or at least understand how much I can't comprehend) the enormity of God's love and grace for me. Well, I understood and appreciated it in the past, but for some reason, now, EVERY TIME I think about it, I break down. It's come down to me being a big sobbing (and quite embarrassing) mess. (What's wrong with me?!)

But lately, as I think about my changing emotional response, I realize that although I may be deeply touched and moved to tears each time I am reminded of the cross and how much God loves me - what I need so desperately is for God's love to transform my heart, rather than just merely touch it. I need my heart to be completely transformed and renewed by God's love for any real transformation to happen within my life.... my heart is still quite capable of being critical, judgmental, prideful, bitter, and all the ugly toxins that can choke spiritual transformation/growth of any kind...

Posted by Ruth at 3/01/2004