Ruth's Ramblings

The trouble with living by faith

.. is pretty much asking how you can walk on a path that you're not sure where it leads, nor are you given a road map much less being able to see more than 10 feet in front of your steps!!! Currently balancing that fine line of trudging forward with what's given me, yet continuously checking all around me for the next step and whether it's God given or whether I'm stepping into nothing and will fall flat on my face. And its the essence of faith that will hold me up from falling flat on my face, unless I focus so much on falling, that I just WILL fall! I'm reminded of Peter stepping out of the the fishing boat and into the stormy sea, wondering whether Jesus will keep his feet from sinking into the water. It's a delicate holding balance - knowing accurately your own strengths and weaknesses, but not letting it consume your basis for expectation of "failure" or "success" because, after all, its not about you so much as it is about God. As I get older, I realize just how difficult it is to be a Christian (how do you revert back to being more "child-like" in your faith?!). Thank goodness for God's grace...

Posted by Ruth at 9/08/2003